Changed for the Better

I woke up this morning and the first thought to cross my mind was, "Wow! do I have a LOT to do!"  

I leave for camp on Sunday, two days from today and 48 hours from this minute. This past week has been a struggle of a kind for me. I want to go to camp, and I know that I will learn so much. It will be a summer of many opportunities to trust God and to learn and grow. But right now I just want to be here and enjoy this time off. I know it's a selfish feeling, but right now I just don't want to learn stuff.

However, I am still excited. Today I need to wash laundry, pack, shop for last minute things, pack, decide what I really need to take, and pack again. I need to finish my devotionals, work on memorizing, say good-byes, and get over myself and decide that this summer is going to be amazing. 

Honestly, I can't wait. It's just one of those change things where it is more comfortable to stay where you are. In the long run, I highly doubt I will ever wish I hadn't taken this summer to do camp. 

If you are reading this, I would love if you'd pray for me. Pray for strength to do what's right. Pray for wisdom to lead my girls toward Christ in the way they need. Pray for joy in all circumstances. Pray that I would rely on God for all my needs over this summer. And pray that this summer I am changed for the better in ways we can not even imagine. 

Thank you (: See you soon.